The Hump.
I'm having a bit of a rough evening today.
I had a wonderful weekend -- went to the Taylor Swift concert and out to a winery with friends today. But being amongst beautiful, skinny people this weekend kind of made me feel inadequate and fat and ugly. Just not good enough. Especially in pictures...ahh those are killer at shooting down your self esteem.
I've officially made it to the hump, which is the end of the 3-week mark. It's that time where even though you've made strides, you're healthier, you feel stronger, and you've even started noticing some body changes --- you still feel like crap and are ready to give up. For me, it's always because I feel like the changes I've made are never enough and I'm not losing weight fast enough or not working out hard enough. Like I have this magical perception that I'm going to suddenly have dropped 20 pounds and look like a size 4 within three weeks, which is not reality.
It's really frustrating. I feel like I've made major strides towards changing my diet and exercise, so I feel like I deserve to be at my goal. But that's not reality and it never will be.
This always happens to me at the 2-3 week mark. And this is why my diets always end at this point, because I feel like going back into my old habits out of frustration, and the vicious cycle starts again.
But I am going to fight through this time. I'm going to sleep tonight, and wake up tomorrow with a fresh attitude and start week 4 with a bang. Yes, I might not have moved mountains on the scales, but I can fit into clothes that were tight or would never have fit before! I feel stronger and more toned . I have two weeks to go before vacation and two weeks to hit my goal of being < 200 pounds before going on vacation. Not sure if I'll hit the 195, but heck I'm going to try.
I had a wonderful weekend -- went to the Taylor Swift concert and out to a winery with friends today. But being amongst beautiful, skinny people this weekend kind of made me feel inadequate and fat and ugly. Just not good enough. Especially in pictures...ahh those are killer at shooting down your self esteem.
I've officially made it to the hump, which is the end of the 3-week mark. It's that time where even though you've made strides, you're healthier, you feel stronger, and you've even started noticing some body changes --- you still feel like crap and are ready to give up. For me, it's always because I feel like the changes I've made are never enough and I'm not losing weight fast enough or not working out hard enough. Like I have this magical perception that I'm going to suddenly have dropped 20 pounds and look like a size 4 within three weeks, which is not reality.
It's really frustrating. I feel like I've made major strides towards changing my diet and exercise, so I feel like I deserve to be at my goal. But that's not reality and it never will be.
This always happens to me at the 2-3 week mark. And this is why my diets always end at this point, because I feel like going back into my old habits out of frustration, and the vicious cycle starts again.
But I am going to fight through this time. I'm going to sleep tonight, and wake up tomorrow with a fresh attitude and start week 4 with a bang. Yes, I might not have moved mountains on the scales, but I can fit into clothes that were tight or would never have fit before! I feel stronger and more toned . I have two weeks to go before vacation and two weeks to hit my goal of being < 200 pounds before going on vacation. Not sure if I'll hit the 195, but heck I'm going to try.
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